This entry is going to be difficult for me to get through. It is already attempt number two to try to do this, and I'm still not real sure just how this one is going to go. It will have probably lots of pictures and hopefully some sentences that will make some sense, and will probably be the only post this week.
It is with a very sad and heavy heart that I s
it down and type this entry about Eclipse. Sometime between Saturday night and Sunday, something went terribly wrong and without even a chance to try she passed away early this morning. There have been so many tears shed in this house in the last 36 hour
s that I'm sure it would be the size of an ocean. I can tell you that my Binky Sue asked her to hang on for one more day yesterday, and Eclipse did just that. She hung on till after Binky Sue had one more morning of Eclipse hearing her voice and responding to her, and after Binky Sue left for school Eclipse passed. There isn't an emergency vet here in our small area of Arizona, and the wait for one more day was so I could get her in this morning. Morning just came about an hour to late today.From the very first moment Eclipse laid tiny kitten eye's on Binky Sue during a visit to a friends house where her and her liter mates were living, Eclipse claimed Binky Sue as her own, and Binky Sue claimed Eclipse as her's. I will never forgot the fast talking almost begging that came from Binky Sue that day. She knew this kitten was to be her's and "Mommy can I please take her home?" From the very first moment to the the final one's before Binky Sue left for school there was a bond of love that I'm not sure can be matched. Eclipse could make you smile at her antics in the house dai
ly. Pose for a picture like no other animal in my house probably ever will. When Binky Sue was sad, she would be right there. When Binky Sue was hyper and happy, so was Eclipse. When Binky Sue would stress about major projects for school, Eclipse would be sure to chew on the papers for her. They were the comidian team of this house. Where you found one you were sure to find the other just so very close behind.
We know what happened...but I'm not going to go into those details because in the end knowing what happened will never change the pain that is being felt by my little girl here tonight. It will never change the pain that is being felt by all of us in this house. Binky Sue and Army Guy found a perfect final spot for her this afternoon. It is in Garden Canyon where there are so many birds to watch and come spring, summer there will be oh so very many butterfly's to chase. Tonight my Binky Sue is wondering how she will be able to sleep for the first time in over 4 years without her girl Eclipse next to her under the blankets. Tonight I'm not looking forward to morning and a missing member of the mini zoo that fills my heart so very much. Another day of Angel calling for her sister and hearing nothing but silence. Another day of Trinity and Mia whining because she isn't in her usual spot by 10 am to tease them. I'm sure tomorrow is going to bring more tears from all of my girls, and even myself. I've said it so many times today to all them that in time the pain will heal, but being Mom I just wish I could heal it a little faster.
Tiny little paws that touched hearts so deeply. I thought it before, and today has had me wondering again...why? Why do we invite them into our heart's when we know they won't live our entire life time? I guess the simplest answer I have is because they need love too, and if you are one the people of this world that wants to share that, you invite them in with open arms, and hold them so very close to your heart.Since this has taken me just about an hour to get typed, I'm sure this is going to my only post for this week. I'm going to be taking a break from the Feline Friday posting for probably the next couple of weeks because...well because Eclipse was the first one I ever posted about for that and right now I just don't see me being able to do it without ending up in tears. I hope that every tries to have a good week. Send hugs to my Binky Sue and I'll be back posting after a little bit of time.
